benidorm
birdmen
GLOW
blaze
burn
combust and
flame
short, shortly
and all my father
and sylvia
left
behind was
lugubriousness
and happy hour 24/7
glow
BLAZE
burn
combust and
flame
6 cl misgiving
6 cl apprehension
6 cl uneasiness
6 cl nervousness
and
4 cl dread
as sylvia
told
my father to forget
so I stumbled through life
I suppose like most people
coping with the darker side
of reality
through some mixture
of ignorance, indifference
and avoidance
blaze,
BURN
combust and
flame
my father probably did the same
but with a cigarette in his hand
so I wish
I wish I had continued
smoking
just
so I could have looked
more elegant
for a moment
blaze
burn
COMBUST
and flame
like esther’s life
my father’s life
as in “the bell jar”
slide, slides
out of control
blaze,
burn,
combust and
FLAME
or at least
he lived his life
in a parallel universe
but
just because it was
a parallel universe
it did not mean
it was out of control
it was just different
just with a risk of burning wings
yes, all that is burning
is burning up or down
and nothing remains
benidorm birdmen
barnstormers
glow
blaze
burn
combust and
flame
